Posted on: Monday, April 30, 2007
Posted at: 4/30/2007 09:05:00 PM
Posted at: 4/30/2007 09:05:00 PM
I wish life was over. I wish i was trouble free. I wish i was dead rite now. My grades are dropping. My guitar is deproving. Sch sucks. My luvvlife's fuck. And my life is meaningless. I cant improve my grades. I cant improve my guitar. I cant forget her. I cant make life intersting. I cant do anything. I mite as well die. I need someone to talk to. Someone i can cry when i talk to him or her. I need tat person now. Im really affected. I dun wana do my work anymore. I dun wana live my live anymore. I wish i could kill myself now. i just canot do anything. i just cant make my life interesting and happy. I wana die now. Sch has no meaning for me. Love also. Guitar too. So nth in this life is meaningful except nothing u noe. Not even my family and frens. Haix... Wish life was over..
Posted on: Friday, April 27, 2007
Posted at: 4/27/2007 09:20:00 PM
Posted at: 4/27/2007 09:20:00 PM
Our frenship is officially over. I shall leave her to be happy. She has her new frens so she can forget her old frens. Must thank her for that. She totally has forget me. So i must forget her. SO, U. Thanks for being my fren. And hope you will be happy with your new ones n forget ur old ones soon.
Posted on: Monday, April 23, 2007
Posted at: 4/23/2007 08:59:00 PM
Posted at: 4/23/2007 08:59:00 PM
I really mis AGNES TEO!!! Miss her so much!!! Its been since start of p6 never communicate. cause diff class. P5 life was so fun because of her. I miss her loads!! I wan to keep in touch with her again. It was so much fun sitting beside her. She taught me a lot of things and helped me make myself a better person. And she was always there to help me when i was in trouble. I really really miss her. Anybody who is still in contact with her, tell me pls pls pls pls. Hahas. Agnes Teo!!! I miss you so much!!
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Posted at: 4/23/2007 08:03:00 PM
Posted at: 4/23/2007 08:03:00 PM
I thought they were my friends. I thought they really cared. But I was wronged. They were just playing around with me, with my feelings. You know what I'm feeling? You think I'm ridiculous just because I am always complaining about my life. But have you ever thought for one second how i feel? What I'm feeling inside? When you guys just ignore my presence? When you guys stop caring about me?
I always knew that I would never have any true friends. But why in the first place give me hope of having one when in the end, you would just destroy my happiness? I feel so, so depressed. Stop putting an act... I mean all of you... Why give me hope in the first place? T_T
I always knew that I would never have any true friends. But why in the first place give me hope of having one when in the end, you would just destroy my happiness? I feel so, so depressed. Stop putting an act... I mean all of you... Why give me hope in the first place? T_T
Posted on: Sunday, April 22, 2007
Posted at: 4/22/2007 04:37:00 PM
Posted at: 4/22/2007 04:37:00 PM
Im undescribeably sad. My heart aches. My mind flies. My stomach grumbles. My body shivers. Im just so melancholic these days. Quite a number of homework. It is kind of bogging me down. Esp geog assignment. The weightage is heavy i guess. And i shall stop thinking about her and aim for higher peaks and try to achieve a GPA of 3.6 or 3.4 at least. My chinese has to improve. It affects my GPA. I must pass my chinese or better, get at least 65. Arghh... Just so difficult to achieve this things. I must improve. Improve. And improve. I need something to get me back in shape and the right state of mind. I need to mug. Start mugging. Stop slacking.
Stress shall not affect me and improvement shall be in my hands again..
Stress shall not affect me and improvement shall be in my hands again..
Posted on: Friday, April 20, 2007
Posted at: 4/20/2007 08:55:00 PM
Posted at: 4/20/2007 08:55:00 PM
Hies. Just a short post before i go do my projects. Five dudes. FIVE. Nice?
1. English Writing portfolio
2. Geography assignment
3. Philosophy assignment
4. Science poster
5. Research Education survey
So, lets see.. Ill start with philosophy. cause mon due. Then geography.. Then sci.. Eng then research education... Kays.. Gtg dudes.. Gdbyes...
1. English Writing portfolio
2. Geography assignment
3. Philosophy assignment
4. Science poster
5. Research Education survey
So, lets see.. Ill start with philosophy. cause mon due. Then geography.. Then sci.. Eng then research education... Kays.. Gtg dudes.. Gdbyes...
Posted on: Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Posted at: 4/17/2007 08:39:00 PM
Posted at: 4/17/2007 08:39:00 PM
Jus a post before i go to sleep. Having headache at the moment. Well, it seems tat she lyk have somone ready.. hahas. Kays.. Good for her... =) Well, It's sometimes no use falling in love with her.. hahas.. Well, dun feel lyk replying the tags.. Nobody cares dudes.. N tat wad hurts the most...
Posted on: Sunday, April 15, 2007
Posted at: 4/15/2007 11:03:00 AM
Posted at: 4/15/2007 11:03:00 AM
Hi, updating again. Friday was actually no sch for me. But i had to go bck to school to help out for an event. I was the usher.
Kays, fri i went to sch at arnd 11. 15am. Arnd 11.30am i was in the mrt and when i boarded, i saw a blind man. I felt sympathetic for him. Then a family boarded. The family had a mum, sister and brother. The brother was about my age but i cud tell he was disabled. His sister was quite pretty. The mum was sitting down and the sister and brother were standing in front of me.I cud see the tears in the sister's eyes. I cud feel how ashamed she was having a brother of tat type. Her eyes were going to drop some tears but she controlled. Everytime the brother looked at her, she wud reluctantly give a smile. I wanted to tell her tat i understood her feelings but i cudnts. Haix. We are lucky to be lucky. Some ppl are lucky to be unlucky. The sister alighted at ang mo kio. Sometimes i feel unlucky but imagine the feelings of tat lady of arnd 20+ age of having such a brother.
So live ur live while u still can.
Kays, fri i went to sch at arnd 11. 15am. Arnd 11.30am i was in the mrt and when i boarded, i saw a blind man. I felt sympathetic for him. Then a family boarded. The family had a mum, sister and brother. The brother was about my age but i cud tell he was disabled. His sister was quite pretty. The mum was sitting down and the sister and brother were standing in front of me.I cud see the tears in the sister's eyes. I cud feel how ashamed she was having a brother of tat type. Her eyes were going to drop some tears but she controlled. Everytime the brother looked at her, she wud reluctantly give a smile. I wanted to tell her tat i understood her feelings but i cudnts. Haix. We are lucky to be lucky. Some ppl are lucky to be unlucky. The sister alighted at ang mo kio. Sometimes i feel unlucky but imagine the feelings of tat lady of arnd 20+ age of having such a brother.
So live ur live while u still can.
Posted on: Saturday, April 14, 2007
Posted at: 4/14/2007 06:37:00 PM
Posted at: 4/14/2007 06:37:00 PM
There is definitely smthing wrong with my tagboard. If anyone noes how to fix it, tell me on msn. Thanks. =)
Posted on: Thursday, April 12, 2007
Posted at: 4/12/2007 05:59:00 PM
Posted at: 4/12/2007 05:59:00 PM
I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!! I HATE WHEN MY FRENS DUN CARE!!!!!!!!! I HATE TIS WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET IT? IM PISSED OFF! IM PISSED!
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Posted at: 4/12/2007 05:55:00 PM
Posted at: 4/12/2007 05:55:00 PM
Im useless, you know.. Nothing can express what i'm feeling in my heart now... No one would understand... No one wud even care... This is what happens to a pathetic guy lyk me... Im a fool... An idiot... A bloody fcuker...
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Posted at: 4/12/2007 05:48:00 PM
Posted at: 4/12/2007 05:48:00 PM
Memories are just where you laid them. What did you expect to find? Was it something you left behind? Don't fall away and leave me to myself. Don't fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands again. Love lies bleeding...
Am I the only place you've left to go? And I watched as you turned away. You don't remember but i do.
Don't fall away and leave me to myself.. Don't fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands...
Just don't leave me alone...
Am I the only place you've left to go? And I watched as you turned away. You don't remember but i do.
Don't fall away and leave me to myself.. Don't fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands...
Just don't leave me alone...
Posted on: Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Posted at: 4/10/2007 07:15:00 PM
Posted at: 4/10/2007 07:15:00 PM
Sometimes i really feel that ive sacrificed too much. I listen bout them everytime and help. I feel really really hurt but i just keep quiet for her happiness. It's sometimes very weird. Even if i have to hear more about them, i dun mind, as long as i can hear her voice. The voice tat can cheer me up. =)
Sometimes in life, we have to sacrifice, don't you agree? And it takes time for a person to notice that we are sacrificing for them although we are really hurt inside, dun u agree? Maybe in my case, it will take forever for her to realise. =(
Sometimes in life, we have to sacrifice, don't you agree? And it takes time for a person to notice that we are sacrificing for them although we are really hurt inside, dun u agree? Maybe in my case, it will take forever for her to realise. =(
TIME IS THE ANSWER
Posted on: Sunday, April 08, 2007
Posted at: 4/08/2007 12:56:00 PM
Posted at: 4/08/2007 12:56:00 PM
I find no meaning n fun in life. Everyday, it is the same routine for me. An old and boring routine. I go to sch. In school, I learn and listen to teachers talking. And I come back home. It has no element of fun. My life is just mundane. I can't seem to find a meaning in my life. There is nothing. I come back doing homework and nothing else. It is not like p6 where I go to school each day looking forward to at least something which was meeting up with my friends. But now, there's just nothing to look forward to. Perhaps all this happened for a reason but what is the reason? Is this the payback for being someone who just wants to achieve goals in life? Or is this my present for my wrongdoings? I really really don't feel like living anymore. Is this just a minor feeling or a major hit on my emotions. People tell me that life is full of happiness and sadness. But I have only found sadness and not happiness.
I know life is a road but is that road just a straight one or is it one with traffic lights and junctions? With other cars around me? Is it just a black n abandoned road abundant with peace and loneliness? Love. Is love just an expressiong which can cause us to feel absolutely afraid and meloncholy? Is love a good thing or a bad thing? Does it benefits us at all? What good does love and life do us?
Sometimes, I just have to understand that some things in life does not always go your way. Even the slightest thing. Sometimes, the smallest element of stuff in our life can cause such a big hole in our hearts that cannot be mended.
If a small thing can cause such a big wound until it cannot be rectified, what about a big thing? Will it be disastrous?
Why do time past? Is it to make us suffer? What happens to our memories? Will they just stay that way or can they be "rewind" again? Sometimes, memories can make us sad, happy or angry but will make us sad mostly. Maybe that memory is an angry one, we will sad because, we miss that action even though we suffered during that memory.
Songs. Songs can also bring back memories. Some songs we loved last time will bring back memories when we listen to it now. As I'm typing, I am also listening to songs that were once my favorites. Sometimes, the best expression of memories starts from songs. You listen to one song, you will remember the year or the time you first loved this song and it will branch to other factors such as your besties that time or even what you experienced that time, the person you once loved. Songs remind me of people whom I once fall in love with. These songs were the songs i listened to when my heart was broken by that person.
Goodbye my lover. It is one of the finest songs in my itunes library. The lyrics are just so deep. Sometimes, I can cry when I listen to this song.
Memories, why do we have to leave them behind? Is it because we have to live on with our lives? Why can't we stay in time? The moment where we love the most. Time flies real fast. I stil remembered the day I first step into my Primaryhood.
The days I had in my primary school. The days I made jokes. The days I had fun with my best friends. But then we were seperated. Why? Why do we have to seperate? What seperated us? Time seperated us. TIME.
Time will make us do a lot of things. When exams are near, time is crucial and we will start revising. When we are having fun, time breaks our fun. Even life is caused by time. Each day we grow. And it is all because of time. TIME, why do you have to break our hearts and make us suffer?
How i wish time could be controlled. Even when you are reading this post or even me, typing it, tme goes by. I guess everthing in this world is affected or affects time...
I know life is a road but is that road just a straight one or is it one with traffic lights and junctions? With other cars around me? Is it just a black n abandoned road abundant with peace and loneliness? Love. Is love just an expressiong which can cause us to feel absolutely afraid and meloncholy? Is love a good thing or a bad thing? Does it benefits us at all? What good does love and life do us?
Sometimes, I just have to understand that some things in life does not always go your way. Even the slightest thing. Sometimes, the smallest element of stuff in our life can cause such a big hole in our hearts that cannot be mended.
If a small thing can cause such a big wound until it cannot be rectified, what about a big thing? Will it be disastrous?
Why do time past? Is it to make us suffer? What happens to our memories? Will they just stay that way or can they be "rewind" again? Sometimes, memories can make us sad, happy or angry but will make us sad mostly. Maybe that memory is an angry one, we will sad because, we miss that action even though we suffered during that memory.
Songs. Songs can also bring back memories. Some songs we loved last time will bring back memories when we listen to it now. As I'm typing, I am also listening to songs that were once my favorites. Sometimes, the best expression of memories starts from songs. You listen to one song, you will remember the year or the time you first loved this song and it will branch to other factors such as your besties that time or even what you experienced that time, the person you once loved. Songs remind me of people whom I once fall in love with. These songs were the songs i listened to when my heart was broken by that person.
Goodbye my lover. It is one of the finest songs in my itunes library. The lyrics are just so deep. Sometimes, I can cry when I listen to this song.
Memories, why do we have to leave them behind? Is it because we have to live on with our lives? Why can't we stay in time? The moment where we love the most. Time flies real fast. I stil remembered the day I first step into my Primaryhood.
The days I had in my primary school. The days I made jokes. The days I had fun with my best friends. But then we were seperated. Why? Why do we have to seperate? What seperated us? Time seperated us. TIME.
Time will make us do a lot of things. When exams are near, time is crucial and we will start revising. When we are having fun, time breaks our fun. Even life is caused by time. Each day we grow. And it is all because of time. TIME, why do you have to break our hearts and make us suffer?
How i wish time could be controlled. Even when you are reading this post or even me, typing it, tme goes by. I guess everthing in this world is affected or affects time...
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Posted at: 4/08/2007 10:16:00 AM
Posted at: 4/08/2007 10:16:00 AM
Gd morning everyone. Okays. Todae, i wan to go n hang out at CWP. Anyone wan go? Go lehs. Its been a long time since we hang out n chit chat. Its oways bball. So change. Anyone not busy todae, come n join me. Hahas.
Okay, im totally tired. The weekend aso not enuf time to update fully.
Thursday,
At nite had oliver twist show at JUbilee hall, Raffles Hotel. Went with my frens. Show start at 8pm n ended at 10pm. Its a play based the book oliver twist. Very nice. Ended at 10pm, my parents came n fetch. Then go eat at changi village. Yumm.. xD Okays, the reached home at arnd 2am. Damn tired.
Fri,
Woke up at 8am, then eat breakfast, then went to my cuzz hse. Sent my auntie, cuzz, mum n bros to my cuzz hse first, then i n my dad went to the mosque at clementi for fri prayers. Then after tat, went to smwhere near east coast road to buy durian puffs. Then zy call me, ask playing bball or not. Then i say mayb. Lols. Okays, then at long last reach my cuzz hse at boon lay. Then i ask my father sent me home so i can play bball, he dun allow, he say troublesome. Then, go play soccer nearby with my cuzz. Had a mtach with a bunch of kids n won. Then go bck. Then arnd 8pm go home. Then reach home at 10pm.
Sat, Woke up at 12pm. xD Tired mah. :p Then went play bball with daryl at 2.15pm until 3.15pm. Then go home. See my father not at home, go send my bro to his fren hse for bday party. Then he come bck. Bath n changed n then at 5pm go fetch my bro, then go to Bugis OG. (Orang Gila) xD While my mum shopped n my bro went to take a look at toys section, my father n i went to Sim Lim square, search for M2 card for my phone. Cheapest is $52.90. Reasonable price. Usually 100 over. Then my father say, its better buy smting else besides the card. So i planned to buy new earphones for my i-Pod. So search n search lyk hell. So many stores till legs tired. Go arnd look for the sony earphones i wanted. Go to sony gallery n see the price, $55, on sale. Go other stores n see, $72. Woah. The sony gallery sell cheaper than the pillar stores sia. 72 minus 55, $17 dolars difference. Then go buy lor. $55. Then start listening. Damn good earphones. Worth buying. Then after tat, go OG carpark n left. Then go eat. Yum yum. xD At changi village again. Hehe. Then my father go round n round, so long way to the changi village. Until i sleep n woke up aso havent reach. Hahas. Then eat, then go home at 11pm, reach home arnd 12+ am. Slept n woke up todae at 9am. N switch on comp. I wan go CWP todae at 1pm. At least sombody go lehs.
Nvm. Well, gtg. Gdbye n have fun tis cuming week. =)
Okay, im totally tired. The weekend aso not enuf time to update fully.
Thursday,
At nite had oliver twist show at JUbilee hall, Raffles Hotel. Went with my frens. Show start at 8pm n ended at 10pm. Its a play based the book oliver twist. Very nice. Ended at 10pm, my parents came n fetch. Then go eat at changi village. Yumm.. xD Okays, the reached home at arnd 2am. Damn tired.
Fri,
Woke up at 8am, then eat breakfast, then went to my cuzz hse. Sent my auntie, cuzz, mum n bros to my cuzz hse first, then i n my dad went to the mosque at clementi for fri prayers. Then after tat, went to smwhere near east coast road to buy durian puffs. Then zy call me, ask playing bball or not. Then i say mayb. Lols. Okays, then at long last reach my cuzz hse at boon lay. Then i ask my father sent me home so i can play bball, he dun allow, he say troublesome. Then, go play soccer nearby with my cuzz. Had a mtach with a bunch of kids n won. Then go bck. Then arnd 8pm go home. Then reach home at 10pm.
Sat, Woke up at 12pm. xD Tired mah. :p Then went play bball with daryl at 2.15pm until 3.15pm. Then go home. See my father not at home, go send my bro to his fren hse for bday party. Then he come bck. Bath n changed n then at 5pm go fetch my bro, then go to Bugis OG. (Orang Gila) xD While my mum shopped n my bro went to take a look at toys section, my father n i went to Sim Lim square, search for M2 card for my phone. Cheapest is $52.90. Reasonable price. Usually 100 over. Then my father say, its better buy smting else besides the card. So i planned to buy new earphones for my i-Pod. So search n search lyk hell. So many stores till legs tired. Go arnd look for the sony earphones i wanted. Go to sony gallery n see the price, $55, on sale. Go other stores n see, $72. Woah. The sony gallery sell cheaper than the pillar stores sia. 72 minus 55, $17 dolars difference. Then go buy lor. $55. Then start listening. Damn good earphones. Worth buying. Then after tat, go OG carpark n left. Then go eat. Yum yum. xD At changi village again. Hehe. Then my father go round n round, so long way to the changi village. Until i sleep n woke up aso havent reach. Hahas. Then eat, then go home at 11pm, reach home arnd 12+ am. Slept n woke up todae at 9am. N switch on comp. I wan go CWP todae at 1pm. At least sombody go lehs.
Nvm. Well, gtg. Gdbye n have fun tis cuming week. =)
Posted on: Saturday, April 07, 2007
Posted at: 4/07/2007 03:53:00 PM
Posted at: 4/07/2007 03:53:00 PM
Hellos guys, nth to post. Going out in a moment. Anyone have fuel's song, hemmorhage tell me pls. OR can download, download for me pls. Hahas. Tat song is nice.. Well..
Gdbye n will post at nite. =)
Gdbye n will post at nite. =)
Posted on: Friday, April 06, 2007
Posted at: 4/06/2007 06:24:00 PM
Posted at: 4/06/2007 06:24:00 PM
Can you just shut the hell up? This is the first time im angry at you, u know? IM never angry at u but wat u posted is jus nonsense. I asked u to go out but you don't wan. Now it seems tat im at fault. Now u noe how i feel when YOU LEFT ME OUT!
Now u noe the feeling rite? Good. I cannot keep it to myself but u tink im happy in my new sch? U tink i dun miss p6? U tink i dun get left out when we go out? YA SOMETIMES, when i feel left out, i wud at least try to get in the conversations and wud not blame my frens. But u? Jus get out of my face u fool! Arghh... Tis is the first time im angry at u. Im sry if tis post hurts.
Now u noe the feeling rite? Good. I cannot keep it to myself but u tink im happy in my new sch? U tink i dun miss p6? U tink i dun get left out when we go out? YA SOMETIMES, when i feel left out, i wud at least try to get in the conversations and wud not blame my frens. But u? Jus get out of my face u fool! Arghh... Tis is the first time im angry at u. Im sry if tis post hurts.
Posted on: Sunday, April 01, 2007
Posted at: 4/01/2007 05:25:00 PM
Posted at: 4/01/2007 05:25:00 PM
Suddenly i felt so happy! Dunoe whye. Well, hu cares..
Ok.. Suddenly miss the prefects of WGPS 2006. Here are the photos. Snow city was fun!
Just lyk one big happy family. ^^
Another big happy family...
The boys rule! Hahas.
Well, all tats good ends good & All tats bad ends bad..
Ok.. Suddenly miss the prefects of WGPS 2006. Here are the photos. Snow city was fun!
Just lyk one big happy family. ^^
Another big happy family...
The boys rule! Hahas.
Well, all tats good ends good & All tats bad ends bad..