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Thanks yeah.
Thanks loads.
For doing that.
now i cant sleep.

Its pretty unfair how they actually pratice favourtism. Or perhaps ignorance towards me. Or perhaps they think im independent enough to do my own things. live my own life.
Its unfair how they actually treat the other two way better than me. care for them more. Mummy doesnt even know what sports i play. Nenek knows that more. Daddy thinks i like mcchicken when i like double cheeseburger more. Nenek knows that. Nenek has always been close to me. She always has.

I feel im closer to nenek then mummy and daddy. They just dont care enough for me or they think im clever enough and grown up enough to do stuff on my own and make decisions on my own. PTM pun dorang tak datang. I feel as though they dont bother to know much about me. Its like they dont bother about me at all. Adek mintak basikal just recently and daddy is like agreeing to get him one. Cause they deem it necessary for him. Ive been asking for new specs since 6 months ago and they endah tak endah. Its quite hurting. My specs are almost breaking apart. And when i tell them that i need a new one, they'll ask me to wait. My adek dah change twice? Both adeks. But me? Ive been wearing this specs since sec one june. I really need a new one cause its gonna break anytime soon.

Some things that i really need, they think it can wait. It hurts. When i come home late, they get angry and a few hours later, they are ok. they dont bother much about it. Everytime i come home after school, nenek yang buka pintu. Its been a long time since mummy opened the door for me when i come home after 6. It was only last tue when i got home at 2 plus that she opened the door. Other days she'll be out with her own activities.

I feel quite left out.
Im crying.
I just wished that they loved me as much as they loved them.

I miss the times we crapped on the phone for daamnnn long on saturday nights.
Now youre busy, im busy. And youre tired so you sleep early on sat nights. ):
I wanaaaa crap with you on the phone for hours again you. ): please please please soon! I miss it laaa. hearing your voice for a long long time and your stories. I miss it tau.

Andd i hope you get enuf rest tonight! Youre tired and you deserve the sleep k. (: hehe.
Im proud of what youre doing. You leader person. hehe. I loved it when you took charge just now. (: I know youre capable! (: hehe.

TAKE CARE YOUUU! <3

Firnaz is migrating. suckyy. OMG. ):

DUDEEEE. imma miss youu. 2G 08 will miss youu. ): U are a great dude okay. A brilliant man with great ideas. A brilliant defender. soccer player. Sportsmen and mugger. :D good good. A lot of stuff that we had with you yknw. Badminton, MOV, class, soccer, a lot laa. so much man. 2 years in the same class as you had been super great. Super awesomee. 2G 08 will never forget you. We'll remember youu all the way. Firnaz ahamed. Haha. The skinny dude with fat heart. (fat means filled with loads of characteristics)

Good luck with your life in india kay brother. Jiayou all the way.
And do visit singapore if you can ! (:
<3

Im having a headache. My body is hot. I wanna go home. No RE now.
But if i go home, id need mc for not going cca.
If i dont go, theyll call my parents.
Im having fever but im staying for cca.
However, i am not gonna force myself to do anything. like i did twice before.
Not this time. This time round, its a really bad one.

I dont get why they dont allow us to home if we have a headache. I mean maybe cause theyd think we're giving it as an excuse. But theres still the benefit of the doubt right? not everyone who doesnt go for cca that says they had a headache were just using headache as an excuse. some do really had headaches. like me. ): then they wants us to stay. What do we do when we stay? almost nothing. Its quite dumb. A waste of time. totally okay. =/

gah. ): My heads banging. helphelp.

I am disappointed in myself as well.
I am. I really am. Gosh. ):
Daddy sounded damn disappointed with me as well. He is.
He said with this marks, itd be hard for me in JC or to go JC even. ):
That sucks. Im doing my best in this. Yet i screw things up.
i panic when im not supposed to. Esp, chem and math. ): chem was finee last year, this year its way bad): gosh.
what is wrong with me..

What did he do this time?
Urgh. cant he just behave and not get influenced?
Seriously. Please. stop going out with your friends. Your bloody idiotic friends.
Your effing useless friends.
You w likouldnt want me come down find them and tell them screw off. So please.
Just leave your effing frens luh.
THEYRE NOTHING. THEYRE NOT WORTH IT.
esp the one that you have been with since primary school. he changed you.
Hes just some freaking loser who dont wanna do anything. I use to think that hes a good guy. But hes just some mother effing dude. seriously.

So stop luh. Please. Dont susahkan mummy daddy.
Ya Allah. Please stop him from doing stupid things. Please make sure he goes far away from all these things. Please put him away from his friends. Theyve influenced him too much already. Please. I dont want him to hanyut.

Haix. Im just so sad. Why are you this way now?
Why couldnt you stay the same like you were last time. ):
Please...
Ya Allah, just sedarkan him. Just let him stay away from his friends who are just one big stupid influence. I seriously cant take it ): I feel so disappointed. It makes me feel as if i didnt influence him great enuf and that i wasnt a role model to him.

I dont know what he has done now. but please, now more..

Pagipagi lagi aku dah penat. and im thinking of stuff..
i think i hate being taken granted for.
You should read this... then you know how i feel.
I just dont dare to tell you. cause i know that itd be really sound paranoid.
well.. kinda.

My week is going to get screwed. seriously. I know im gonna get screwed.
I feel soo...
Nvm. I dont even know if you read my blog ever.

I was eating murtabak cause i was sad.
I tasted it.
It felt good. it was awesomely delicious. and then i cried. =/
i wonder why.

haha. A friend. called me a playboy.
Im not angry. just hurt. sad. a friend calling me playboy?
kinda hurting yknow. maybe she didnt mean it. but she sure did make it sound natural.
Maybe im one? perhaps to a lot of people, i am a playboy.

Imma blog cause maybe id feel better. (:
haha. i cant studyyyyy ! =/ gahh.
tsk. damnn.

Ytd she called me tamak. mcm selambaaa je she say. quite saddening. but nvm.
After the thing ytd, i went out with aqilahquack. (: i went meet her after like 5 days not talking to her. shes been busy with her thai fren uh. ;D

hm. we crapped in the library (:
very crappy. think we were noisy? =/ but it was fun!
1x1 = 2. hehe. thats my quack answering. bukan maen confident sey she. haha. XP
it was veryy funn ytd. (: she very slenge or selangor cause of the things she said and did. -.-
hehe.
but shes still my quack (: i still quack her.

Ytd i met my family at bugis so i went solat at masjid sultan first. Saw her (: haha. but didnt manage say hi though.
Then i called aqilahdaughter. And we talked. and i found out that fiq saw me at simlim square. haha. LOL. hehe. didnt see him though. =/ gah. wanted meet him siaa. haha. nvm.

Then tadi quack call me, she was pissed. long story.
then she told me smth else. she told me sth else. smth about me. (: nvm. let him think what he wants. im used to it already quack (: so takpe. hope you dont stay pissed at him for long kae. not good (:

Im supposed to finish studying chem by tonight. but im only 3/4 through. still got a few more formulas that i need to memorize. still got a few concepts i dont understand. ): gah.

Im happy quack is happy. she getting pixon. (: awesomee. hehe.
Quack is loved <3

This post is gonna be very emo. ):
sorry guys.

Gah. I hate this. I hat myself.
I do nothing but diappoint my family.
Why can i be so talented in so many areas but not my studies?
why? I suck.
My parents are gonna feel so disappointed.
I cried. I really did. I really really did. So so badly.
told mummy i wanted to go for a run. But i took a stroll up the hill and cried. ): this is so irritating. )':

But i gotta stay happy. for you. (:

So what if im in RI?
Being smart or scoring well in psle doesnt run in the blood.
So what if im smart and my brother isnt?
Hes my brother. Hes still talented in many other areas. Hes really good in shuffling. Hes freaking good in art.
So what if hes not as clever as me ? So what if he didnt get into RI like i did? So what if he is in RS? NA? im not ashamed eh pls. (:
I bet he leads a happier life than me uh. (:
I love my brother eh.
Dont ever criticize him in any way. Or ill crush your face.
Hes my brother and I dont care whether hes as smart as me or not.
Hes still my brother.

Nurulhuda is a strong girl (:
Stay strong and cheerful always kae.
Anything, we are all here for you (:

Hi.
Syf silver. ):
Tsk.
But its okay. (:
Bye.

Well i dont know what im gonna do anymore.

FIRDAUS SULAIMAN ! (:
haha. aku random ah bro. sorry.
jgn emo ah. mcm today. ): tak bagus sey. seriously, tak gerek. =/
cheer up ! (:

One a side note, lets go raffles ! we gonna grab that gold and show cikgu square, that we are capable of breaking the boundaries. (: lets go ashraf ! (: hahaa. lets go ! ( reminds me of fawaz woodlands ring *lets go! ) I miss him. ):

on a front note, i still sygkn you no matter what . (: Even if i know you no longer have any feelings for me. (: I still care about you. (:

On a last last last note, my backbone hurts really badly. spraiinedddd it. ): gah ! im feeling super tired and i feel upset alot. =/ pfft.

Byebye ppl.

I feel effing stupid. I dont know how do chem. haha.
i think just by smth i read, i can get moody. haha. lol.
yes im moody. byebye.

i feel wayy taken for granted. (:
I really do. (: