Posted on: Friday, August 06, 2010
Posted at: 8/06/2010 10:30:00 AM
I think ill just post this up. haha, no one reads
this blogg anyway. But i just gotta let this out.

Why do I feel afraid? Why do i feel like i just wanna stay this way. This jerky side of me. I really dont know.

I dont know why i feel angry, i feel scared and this certain amount of hatred for you. I really dont know. ><

Im just so confused. When i think back, i realised I've always been very naive. And now maybe its time for me to mature. Sometimes I dont even trust you enough.
Maybe you still have feelings for Z or even F? haha ill never really know.
You talk to F secretly anyway (: how about Z? i dont knowwww. and you changed your hotmail password. haha to dont know what, it was my name kan? then now its not. so i wonder why you changed. i dont wanna hurt you at all yknow. Sometimes i know when i think about us, Ill end up thinking of F or Z and whether you still like them. Guess it was hard for me to win your heart over. I just hope ill be better in time to come >< guess right now, im making you feel hurt too and i taknak. entah :/

I guess this also serves as a test to see how much you really need me and want me.
I love you but I'm sorry..